AMBIENT THOUGHT – EPISODE One Hundred Twenty Six: A Grey Day…

The following and all of the other episodes to come are snapshots of what goes on in my head, now and in the past. There are times none of this will make sense. There will be times when I might get lucky and the blog I post will be well constructed and will flow like a mountain stream to an awaiting lake below. Other times it will seem like the ramblings of a madman and you’ll ask yourself, “What the……?”
You should probably get used to the latter.


A Grey Day
Before you read the following, I need you to understand a few things. I wrote this after thinking about it for a long time. I woke up one Sunday morning and I knew I was ready to write it. Another thing is you must have an open mind to understand where I’m coming from. And lastly, I spelled Grey with an E, not an A. That was intentional. I spell it the English way rather than the American way. I’m partial to E’s.  

The news is so hard to watch. It feels like we have become a world so obsessed with hate and ignorance. This group of people doesn’t like this one. And the sad thing is, it’s been that way for a long time.

We’re supposed to be getting better, getting smarter, getting more understanding as technology get more refined and moves us to better lives for the future. Our ignorance seems to be going right along with our advanced knowledge.


What about to say may be controversial but I believe it’s the truth and once we accept this, we can move forward.


Everybody is to blame.
Once you reach the age of understanding, if you don’t accept one another for who they are…you are to blame. You have become one of the many that can’t see past another’s race, age, gender, religion, non-religion, lifestyle and see the person.

Let’s look at it like this. Go with me here…

We are all going to go to sleep tonight at the same time. It doesn’t matter if you work a night shift or don’t work at all. We are all going to lay our heads down at the same time tonight.

Tomorrow, we are going to wake up at the same time and look at ourselves in the mirror. Guess what?

We are all going to be grey. We are all going to be the exact color of grey. None of us are going to be a specific gender. We will all have the same sexual organs. Both. We will not need another person to procreate. We can have a grey child just like us that is born exactly the same way.

We will have the same the same jobs. We will all go to a workplace and put a thing inside another thing for mass consumption. We will all work for eight hours, with a half an hour break, and then come home. We will not watch TV. There will be no TV. We will sit in our grey chairs and think about grey thoughts until we need to go to bed and have grey dreams until we wake up and will do it all over again.
Day after day…

There will be no religion. There will be no art. There will be no music. There will be no books. There will be no creativity of any kind.

We will all be one bland, boring, dull, drab, culture. There will be no differences or specialties of any kind.No one will be taller than the others. No one will be darker than others. No one will be thinner or thicker or cuter or uglier or smarter or dumber.

We will all be exactly the same. And not just us. The further generations will all be exactly the same.

Man…that would suck.

And you know it would. You can’t get around the fact that you would have no distinguishing features that would set you aside from others, either physical or mental. You would be the same.

Of course, there are a few good things that would come from this. We would all be acceptable to others. Our ignorance wouldn’t get in the way.  There will never be another race or religion prosecuted for the way they look or what they believe. To prosecute others would be to prosecute ourselves.

How hard would it be to have those few good things being who we are right now? How hard would it be to change ourselves and accept each other for whom we are? How hard would it be to accept one good person for the good person they are and not by the differences that they have with us?

Aren’t we a better world for the differences that exist in it?

OK. Let’s think of this.

Let’s say we all go to bed at the same time tonight and wake up tomorrow with a new attitude. Let’s say when we look in the mirror and see the person we are is changed, on the inside. The outside is the same. We still have brown, black, blonde, red, rainbow, or no hair. We still are thin, thick, or whatever sized shaped bodies. We still are short, tall, or whatever height we were before.
But the way we think and feel is not just one color. We think in all of the colors. We accept each other for our good actions. We ALL believe we can be better people and accept each other.

We all accept each other for our good works.


Unfortunately, odds are, we won’t. We’ll wake up tomorrow and shun people for how they decide to live. We’ll judge people for how they dress or what god they decide to worship. We’ll judge others for the god they don’t worship. We’ll judge people for how they are born or the decisions that they choose for themselves.

We’ll wake up tomorrow and believe that we are simply right and we have no faults, that we are perfect. We’ll believe that the change will fall on others and not ourselves.

We can’t keep believing that it’s us against them. We can’t keep believing that we are better than others.

We are all the same. We may not be grey. We may be every color and every race and every gender and every sexual orientation.

But we really are all the same. We are all brothers and sisters in this world.

And once we accept that…our days will no longer be grey.

-Loyd Elmore
September 28th, 2018


I’ve decided to keep a blog about how I’m dealing with depression. I’m going to consider this a form of therapy. It might not help anybody else but it might help me.

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