AMBIENT THOUGHT BLOG – ACOUSTIC PONDERS: Eleven/Giving In
Like all emotions, grief is a part of life as much as joy. Sometimes it’s a more of life. So much so it can feel overwhelming.
We lose something or someone and the grief is there, a part of us. It follows us through all activities and can keep us from wanting to be involved in those things we love. It feels wrong. It feels disrespectful to engage in something that made us happy before.
But when do we finally let go of the grief? When can we allow ourselves to give in to the joy we want to feel?
For some, it takes longer. For some, the grief is used in a self-flagellation. They feel they can’t allow any joy in during a time of sadness.
I’m guilty of that.
In deep grief and depression, the grief becomes a refuge. It makes me feel that I’m honoring the sadness that follows a loss. Guilt comes from a simple smile or a laugh.
I’m here to tell myself that I need to give in to the joy.
As hard as it is to do…
-Loyd Elmore Jr.
September 17th, 2018