AMBIENT THOUGHT – EPISODE Eighty Six: Transitions…

The following and all of the other episodes to come are snapshots of what goes on in my head, now and in the past. There are times none of this will make sense. There will be times when I might get lucky and the blog I post will be well constructed and will flow like a mountain stream to an awaiting lake below. Other times it will seem like the ramblings of a madman and you’ll ask yourself, “What the……?”
You should probably get use to the latter.



Game of Death was a movie that stared Bruce Lee but before the movie finished filming, he died. It was finished about five years later using two stand ins. The film is about Bruce having to ascend a pagoda and fight different martial artists to go on to the next. Each one more dangerous than the previous.
Your basic video game.

I feel life is exactly the same way.

Going through life can be hard or it can be hard if we make it that way. We go sailing along with wind in your sails, heading to open water or to some destination. We might get lucky and it stays that way and you bring your boat to a comfortable stop at the dock or the sandy beach. Then there are times the wind drops and you get stuck, either hoping to get the engine started or rowing your butt off. And then….there are times when the wind whips your sail to shreds and a storm hits you out of the blue. Maybe it was there in the horizon but you were too focused on the blue sky ahead and not the massive thunderstorm heading in from behind. Maybe you saw it all along and thought you were indestructible…

We try to come away from those things with a lesson learned and to know better next time. If we take those hard learned lessons to heart, we take another step forward to the next level. After enough of those lessons, we can transcend and ascend to the next level where more unknown hazards are awaiting, more lessons that need to be learned to get on to the next level, another transition.

When it comes to my life, I always picture Bruce Lee going from one level to the next, defeating foes, on his way to the top.
Here comes some money problems…fight…move on.
Here comes a social problem…fight…move on.
Depression raises its ugly head and makes you feel horrible…fight…fight…fight…move on a little.

For different people, some fights are easier. Easy or hard, we all have to fight to get to the next level.

There are some that give up and go back down the stairs to live on the last level they beat, their fight is gone or they feel too weak to try to move up.
They settle.
It’s their choice. Some people become comfortable in their life and are happy on the level they made a home at. There is no shame in that.

With some, they are never happy with whatever level they made it to and they’ll keep fighting to the next level. Some of those, that level of the pagoda is where they should stay but they can’t be happy with what they have. They never have enough and they fight unneeded battles to get something they don’t need. Maybe they never really wanted it. All they know to do is fight blind with no purpose at all.

Some of us need to get to that next level. There is a power pulling them upward. Fulfillment and enlightenment is not far away. Happiness, true happiness is just a few hard fought steps further.

With each of these levels we overcome, we not only transcend to the next but we transcend mentally to a higher thinking. If we learn the things we should, we become more passionate, more plugged in, calmer, and hopefully, find the peace we’ve been searching for. We can develop a full understanding on not only how we see the world but how we live in it.

Some levels can be hard. Having a child is an easy part of that level. Teaching that child the rights and wrongs, showing that child the proper attention, giving that child the correct guidance in life, can all be the hard part. When you include the necessities of showing love and accepting love when teaching these things to that child, the level can become much, much easier. And it can make further levels easier.
It’s amazing when you let love into your life and learn from it and teach with it how life can become easier.

Still, those levels will need to be approached and defeated. With the proper training and tools, each level can be easier to defeat and pass.

As I write this, I still have a few more levels above me that needs to be defeated. Parts of those levels give me little worry, then other parts scare me to no end. I don’t know if passage of those levels will take me days, weeks, months or years. I may never be able to get to the level I need to. But I hope so.

Is there a top level?

You bet. We will all get to that level no matter what level we stop at. At a certain point in your life, that top level will become your level. It will be instant.

That top level is death.

No way around it. It’s going to happen. The level you pick to stay at and that top level will become one and the same. Who knows? Maybe it won’t matter what level you decide to stay in the end. Maybe what we do in this life will mean exactly nothing so no matter where you are in your personal pagoda, it equals zero.

Or maybe it does… I hope it does.

Maybe what level we decide to stay at brings a huge weight to how we are balanced in the next life, if there is one.
Maybe how we see ourselves and how we treat and teach others in this life will transcend into the other, the next life.
Maybe happiness and love and the feeling of completion goes with us.

I honestly don’t want to take a chance.

I need to take that next level.

Right now…

-Loyd Elmore
October 20th, 2017


I’ve decided to keep a blog about how I’m dealing with depression. I’m going to consider this a form of therapy. It might not help anybody else but it might help me.



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