The following and all of the other episodes to come are snapshots of what goes on in my head, now and in the past. There are times none of this will make sense. There will be times when I might get lucky and the blog I post will be well constructed and will flow like a mountain stream to an awaiting lake below. Other times it will seem like the ramblings of a madman and you’ll ask yourself, “What the……?”
You should probably get use to the latter.
EPISODE SIXTY FIVE: Truth In A Dirty Glass
This picture represents an actual thing I witnessed.
Not too long ago, my wife and I went to Lewisburg, TN to their goat festival. We’re not animal farmers or ‘country folk’. We just like goats. Easy as that.
So, we enjoy our time there and see many goats. When even get to see the famous fainting goats where we got to see one do that very thing. Call me rude or even childish but I laughed. Hard.
We get our fill of the sight of goats and decide to make our way to Columbia, TN to check out the square and a book store I’ve been wanting to go to, Duck River Books, when after getting lost once and then finding our way back on track, I see it…
I saw a life changing moment.
Would it have been a life changing moment for anybody else? Maybe not. Or maybe so. Sometimes you have to be open to it. And you may not be expecting it because those moments may be small.
In front of us was a dirty SUV heading to parts unknown. It was dusty and the back window was impossible to see through. The owners of the SUV may have been some of those ‘country folks’ I mentioned on the way to the car wash to give their precious vehicle a much-needed bath.
But not before I saw an important message written on the back glass with somebody’s finger.
It was a happy face with a plus sign, then a picture of a heart. Then an equals sign. Then a peace sign.
Happy face + heart = peace.
It took me a second to really notice it but once I did, I said it out loud.
I said it out loud a few times. My wife is use to this sort of behavior from me so she didn’t say anything. After a minute, I stopped saying it out loud but I kept it in mind. I didn’t even notice when the SUV turned and left my field of vision. I just kept thinking about it.
It’s something so simple. Those symbols, in that order, may have been on t-shirts and bumper stickers for years I may have not really noticed. Somebody has earned millions of dollars for that selection of symbols in that order and I was none the wiser.
But seeing them written on a dirty SUV window got me to thinking.
It’s a hundred percent true. If you are happy…and you love…you are at peace. Or you bring peace. Being a happy person and showing love will bring you peace and maybe others peace.
That’s it in a nutshell.
Of course, it’s an easy equation to see but it’s not necessarily easy to learn. Especially when being happy is a hard constant. We have to get to that to be able to complete the equation.
Happy is a hard subject. Some people know how to do it pretty easy and can get an A in that class. Some people need special help to scoot through with a C. Some just fail. Period.
Once you learn to be happy, when you allow yourself to, in other words, you can find that equation to be learnable, to be achievable. When you learn to be happy, the whole world becomes a bigger, better place. You see things you didn’t see before. When you were sad or depressed, your thoughts were turned inside, where the pain was. You missed the magic.
When you’re happy, you turn your happiness outward.
When you’re happy, you love more. More things, more people. And that causes you to love more. You love more in greater quantities. You look past the little things that upset you and caused you to become more inward to see the little things that make you smile.
You’ll notice the little girl with her hand in her daddy’s hand and the sweet smile on her face. You’ll notice the cat in the window of a neighbor’s house look at you with sly eyes. You’ll notice the flowers and the bees and the white puffy clouds and the breeze in the trees.
It’s suddenly turned into a Disney movie. Sorry about that. I just seem to be visualizing that way.
You will notice those things, though. And when you do, you’ll know you are truly happy. And that will cause you to be at peace. The things that worried you before will slip away in the warmth of the happiness you feel, the love that you feel.
Those things that caused harm to your feelings will make way to peace in your heart.
And you will project that outward to others.
And your positive feelings may cause others to be happy, then that may make way for them to feel love, which, in turn, causes them peace. If the mood is right, it may go on and on.
It starts with you. It always will. You can’t rely on others to get you started on the road to feeling and being positive.
Speaking of road, you may not have a dirty SUV in front of you with a dirty window spouting out words (or symbols) of wisdom for you to think about and put into motion. Maybe you’ll see it another way.
Maybe this blog post will do.
I’m still struggling with being happy. Everyday. Though, I am seeing signs that I can be happy more than not. The rest of that day after seeing the symbols in the dirty window, I enjoyed the day more. I smiled more often. I saw the cloudless, blue sky above my head and saw my sweetheart of a wife smile at me with love in her eyes.
I was happy. I had love. And I was at peace.
It was a good day.
April 14th, 2017
I’ve decided to keep a blog about how I’m dealing with depression. I’m going to consider this a form of therapy. It might not help anybody else but it might help me.