AMBIENT THOUGHT – EPISODE Thirty Two

The following and all of the other episodes to come are snapshots of what goes on in my head, now and in the past. There are times none of this will make sense. There will be times when I might get lucky and the blog I post will be well constructed and will flow like a mountain stream to an awaiting lake below. Other times it will seem like the ramblings of a madman and you’ll ask yourself, “What the……?”
You should probably get use to the latter. 

EPISODE THIRTY TWO:  Wrong Or Right.

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As a kid, I was taught by my parents and teachers the difference between wrong and right.
“Do this.”
“Don’t do that.”
“Very good.”
“STOP. What are you doing?”

That’s all fine. Of course it is. We have to learn what to do and what not to do when we’re little.
But when we get older, that line between the two can get further apart and the space between can get grayer. And some things that we learned to be right was really wrong and vice versa.
“Girls can’t do that.”
“Girl power.”

“Being gay is wrong.”
“Love is love.”

“They’re a different color. They are inferior.”
“All lives matter.”

These are things that changed for the better. It went from wrong to right. Not overnight and they still have a way to go but heading in the right direction.

But somethings we must decide for ourselves whether they are wrong or right, for us. Sometimes it’s our lifestyles and/or beliefs that are in question.
Since I can’t speak for anybody else on this planet but myself, I’m going to state the things that are right for me. Judge or judge not. These are mine.

I believe in God. I don’t stand on a soapbox and scream at each passerby that they are going to Hell if they don’t. I think that’s rubbish. I bet there are plenty of people going to Heaven whether they believe or not. And the reason I believe isn’t because I was made to as a child but because I need to. I need to know that this life isn’t all there is. I need to know when I’m gone, it isn’t just nothing but another place. I need to know I’m being watched over by a higher power. On some days, just believing in that has got me through. Plus, there have been some things that have happened in my life that says there is. Those are stories for another day.
Agree with me or not, it doesn’t matter. If we’re friends, odds are you know this already and it doesn’t bother you.

I think drinking too much and smoking anything is bad for you. I’m not going to say I don’t drink. I have had the taste for a beer every once in a while, maybe two. But I’m not a regular drinker. I’ve had, as of this writing, maybe two beers since the beginning of 2016. I believe they were Blue Moon. And they are bad for me. Not as bad as some thing things but not great.
And smoking, tobacco or pot, is bad. Tobacco needs no explanation but pot does. I’m not talking about pot or cannabis oil to help relive pain or help ones medical problems. I’m all for that. I’m talking about recreation use to get high. Is it worse than alcohol? In my opinion, no. I just don’t see how bringing smoke into your lungs is good for you. If they want to legalize pot, I have no problem with that. Regulate it like liquor and be done with it. But that doesn’t mean I have to smoke it or go where it’s being smoked.

I believe we have become a people who don’t talk to each other enough. I blame a lot of it technology. We bury our heads in our phones, computers or tablets and even though we e-mail, text, chat, Parascope and all other digital ways, we don’t really talk to people anymore. We don’t get face to face with someone and speak what’s on our minds and in our hearts.
And think we have just become scared to really talk to other people. Not so much people we already know and know how we are, but strangers. I think we’re afraid they’ll get insulted. We have become so sensitive. We’re afraid to say the wrong thing or have it taken the wrong way. There are people who know what they are saying and try to harm others with their words but I’m not talking about those people.

And speaking of saying what’s in our hearts, I believe we have forgotten to say I love you and mean it. I’m not talking about being ‘in love’, just saying I love you to somebody. Why is it so hard to say it to your kids nowadays? To look into their eyes with a parents love and say I love you. Not to mention your spouse. Or your friends. The people in your life that you care about. If they were missing from your life, you would miss them. Saying I love you and meaning it is a wonderful thing. When we hear it from someone, we might get a bit red-faced from a bit of embarrassment but what a wonderful thing to hear.
I think a big problem with this world and its people is because of this. I truly do.

And Raiders of the Lost Ark is the greatest movie ever. ‘Nuff said.

There are others but those are the biggies. Those are things I believe , whether they are wrong or right, whether you agree or not. But those are things that shouldn’t keep us from being friends.

We must all decide some things that are wrong or right in our lives. And if you need to change a wrong into a right, I ask that you please do so. You’ll be happier with yourself.  And those that you care about how they feel about you will be happier with you, too.

And since I am one to say this, I will.
I love you. Thank you for being you.

And I’m serious about Raiders. The BEST.

-Loyd Elmore
Sept. 22nd 2016

 

I’ve decided to keep a blog about how I’m dealing with depression. I’m going to consider this a form of therapy. It might not help anybody else but it might help me.

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