The following and all of the other episodes to come are snapshots of what goes on in my head, now and in the past. There are times none of this will make sense. There will be times when I might get lucky and the blog I post will be well constructed and will flow like a mountain stream to an awaiting lake below. Other times it will seem like the ramblings of a madman and you’ll ask yourself, “What the……?”
You should probably get use to the latter.
EPISODE THIRTY ONE: Earn This…
The following has spoilers for the movie Saving Private Ryan.
By the way, if you haven’t seen it….for shame.
There is a scene in Saving Private Ryan that echoes in my mind constantly. Captain Miller (Tom Hanks) is dying and he tells Private Ryan (Matt Damon) to ‘earn this’. What he’s saying is that with the sacrifice that came with this group of soldiers to save Ryan, we better earn it by living a good life, a productive life, to make it all worth it.
We see an old Ryan asking his wife if he had been a good man. She tells him yes, all happening in front of Captain Miller’s grave in France.
Earning it is something we should all do. After a certain time of being a child when we don’t have somebody else wipe our behinds or feed us or bath us or put the food on the table that we then eat, we must earn it. As soon as we are old enough to do chores and ‘pay’ our own way, we must earn it. When we are old enough to get a real job and start to pay bills, we must earn it. And on and one…
We must earn it.
Earn what, you might ask.
There have been many sacrifices that has happened to get you where you are today. It doesn’t matter if you had a great childhood or not, rich or not, happy or not, we must all earn our life from those that helped us. From the soldier to the guy/girl that opened the door for you that time. Even the nice waiter/waitress that gave you a genuine smile. To the friend or stranger that made you laugh from your soul and the stray cat that came up to you for a pet.
We have to earn a good life, it can’t be just given to you. I mean, it can if you come from a rich family but what do you really get out of that. You can fill your life up with material objects, sure. But what about what fills up your soul? You have to do that by being kind and understanding, by giving the best parts of you.
You earn it by giving.
Give everyday, whenever you can. I’m not talking about money. I mean, yes you can give money to a charity. I’m talking about something better than that, you can give time, a kind word…you give…yourself.
Some people have it all wrong. They think they are entitled to a good life. They take because they feel it’s owed to them because of where they were born or how they were born or because they had a tough day or because they are breathing.
YOU ARE ENTITLED TO NOTHING. Not one thing in the life is entitled to you.
You want a smile from someone? Earn it. Smile first.
You want a kind word from someone? Earn it. Tell them something positive.
You want a better life? EARN IT!!!
That last one, I have to tell myself all of the time, 24/7. That’s a tough one but it can be achieved. Work is required to earn some things. Sometimes, it’s so much work you’ll doubt yourself and you’ll get weak and you’ll want to give up and say that you’ll just deal with it.
You can’t do that. Those things that are hard to get that you want badly WILL BE WORTH IT.
But you have to earn it. You have to earn every molecule of it. A true good life comes from your own hard work. There are times you must put the life you know and your heart on the line to earn a good life. There is no other way around it unless you want it filled with things that don’t matter and is made of nothing. That’s it in a ribbon.
I’ve been tempted to sit back and just let things go on no matter how much it bothered me and drove me insane to where it took a toll on my physical and mental health. For years, I stayed seated into place not trying to earn what I wanted. I thought it might just come to me like in a movie or from a miracle. Sometimes those things DO happen. But you can’t rely on them. You find yourself at the age of 44, finally standing up and rolling up shirt sleeves and putting hands to the levers to make the dream machine work. I started late, maybe too late, to get moving on earning the life that I want.
But…I’m here now. I’m going to earn it if it takes my last breath from my body. I WILL make it happen.
I’m not sure what the meaning of life is. There may be none. But I tend to think there is a grand scheme for our existence. Believe me or not, your choice. I think it comes down to the simple things…to get along with each other and to make our lives important. We are given a life in one way or another. Doesn’t matter if you believe in a higher power or if we came from the sea millions and millions of years ago, we must earn the life we are given and we must strive everyday to make use of it the best way we know how.
So, I’m going to earn it. If I haven’t done it enough before, I’m going to now. There are people in my life I want to inspire and see that they should be earning it, too.
Maybe it’s you.
Yep. It’s you. Roll up your sleeves. It’s time to earn a life.
Captain Miller would want the same thing.
Sept. 18rd 2016
I’ve decided to keep a blog about how I’m dealing with depression. I’m going to consider this a form of therapy. It might not help anybody else but it might help me.